I feel rotten

rot·ten

 

–adjective wretchedly bad, unpleasant, or unsatisfactory; miserable


Yes, that is the perfect word to describe me.


I got sick a month ago with my third sinus infection this year. It was a pretty bad one. The OB gave me an antibiotic last week and it cleared it up mostly, but not totally. I still feel terrible. I am not kidding you when I say that this past month has been pretty terrible. Its just been a blur of getting through life. I get nothing accomplished. Maybe twice a week I have motivation to do productive stuff.  I AM EXHAUSTED! When I went vegan, it was because I felt a lot like this. I know I need to change my diet so I am starting today. I was gonna start yesterday but my sister in law made strawberry pizza and brownies. I ate enough dessert for 3 people (at least). I have a MAJOR sugar problem. When I try to get through a day without it, my body starts withdrawing and it makes my day worse. So I have a little.... then a little more.... then a TON more while nobody is looking. I feel better, then a while later I feel worse. When I started my vegan diet I started intense. I cut off ibuprofen, diet Dew, and only ate fruits and vegetables for like 5 days. I was literally, seriously SICK! I had to lay down all through the day because I felt like I was gonna die. Once I got past that terrible week, I never felt that way again. Even if I binged on unhealthy food and sugar for a whole weekend, it was never hard to start back up. Then the holidays came and we were only eating good half the time. Then in January I got pregnant and couldn't stomach the idea of eating healthy. Now I am in the same position I was in last July. I just want to sleep all day and I have no drive to do anything. And when I do have a busy day, it kills me. I realize I am pregnant, but I dont think I should feel this rotten.

I'm announcing to anyone that reads my blog...

TODAY I AM CHANGING MY DIET!

I'm not really sure what I am doing because, lets be honest, I am pregnant and I crave stuff. Plus, its not like I can lose weight so I'm not gonna sacrifice too much :) But I am saying goodbye to sugar and refined flour..... except once a week. This is gonna be hard. You have no idea, unless you are a sugar addict like me.